Here – but not really

I thought studying in Mainz and Living at home would be the easiest solution. I never would have figured that I would be involved in student life so soon – mainly with the LAX team of course. But nonetheless I spend so much time on trains or waiting for the latter it makes me sick. Like literally sick because I don’t get enough sleep plus I have to leave early in the morning which is alright as long as I am just studying Journalism but next year I will have twice the workload with the additional Sport and Sportscience lectures and seminars.

So right now I’m wondering if it wouldn’t be better for my physical as well as my mental health if I either do my drivers licence and get a car as soon as possible or if I try to look for a small room in a shared flat for 3-4 times a week, after practice and maybe before Game days as well. I don’t want to rely on the German Train system because if I do – I am loosing for sure.  I feel like it’s time to evolve but I’m not sure how it is supposed to work.

I mean don’t get me wrong – I’ve been living on my own for 3 years before but it is just really complicated to support myself. And I love my home and the way I made it my own. I’m not moving out, so I would just basically be living out of a suitcase and I don’t know if I would be fine with that. Yet I find myself craving for my own place again – maybe because everyone around me has their own flat, or room at least, and I miss the independence and maybe because I love inviting people over and I can’t do that at home because it is so far away.

Today I applied to 5 different shared flats and I looked up the next one-week drivers licence class for December. I’m trying to keep doors open or rather open them in the first place. I need to figure out a way and I think however it works out as long as it does, I’m fine with it.


Two months ago I would have never thought that I would want to spend so much time here and that I would find a team as awesome as the Musketeers. I feel so much welcomed by each and everyone on the team and so very much supported! And I am really really happy about the close friendship I have with Leo. We’ve been sort of friends before at the musical school and it is amazing how much has changed in both our lives in the one year we barely had contact, yet we instantly connected again! I am really thankful I can talk to her and study with her. She is really precious and I am glad we reconnected thanks to University!

With everything that is going on at the moment and loads of secret projects I can’t yet tell you about I shouldn’t forget that I still am first and foremost a student, so I’m gonna pack up and head to my seminar now.




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